b*ponders : growth and change in life and blogs

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One of the things that has been on my mind of late, is the topic of growth and change. It happens all around us on a daily basis. Minute by minute, second by second, things are changing. Plants are growing and dying. Houses are being built and destroyed. People are being born and buried. I look at myself a year ago, and I wonder who that person was. I look back five years, and I can barely recognize that college senior, ready to graduate and take on the world. I feel as if I am changing on a constant basis. My ideas, preferences, style, mood, and personality are rays of sunlight through a canopy of trees–shifting and flickering and changing as the hours pass. I feel a restlessness in my soul, and I grow bored very quickly, which leads to an ever-evolving sense of self. On another level, I feel my relationship with God deepening and growing, as He draws me closer to himself, and reveals areas in my life that need adjustment. I feel as though there is no room for static, motionlessness or inactivity. Certainly there is time for rest, but even in rest, there is change.

I say all of this because as I continue to author this blog, it makes me stop and wonder what remnants of my old self I am leaving behind on this journey through life. I am not one of those bloggers who writes to remember. In fact, I never read old posts. I write, read though a couple times, publish and forget. Occasionally I will re-read a post if I need to link to it, but it is rare. I don’t like visiting the old versions of myself that are buried in the archives of this blog. I feel almost uncomfortable, because sometimes I catch a glimpse of a person who is incongruent with who I am today. I author this blog mostly because I love to write, and I love to share snippets of my life with you, my silent but faithful readers. And yet each day, I add to a record of who Bethany Hway was and is. I don’t always (or often) share the deep things, and there is much of my life that I keep private, but the bottom line is that this blog is a reflection of my devlopment over time.

As I grow and change, I feel the need to refine and rework my brand as well. Over the years, this blog has been through many a re-design. As I have changed, and as my content has shifted to reflect those changes, the colors, fonts and design style have changed significantly as well. This blog is an ever-evolving picture of who I am–both in content and design. In the next couple weeks, I’ll be revealing a brand new b*spoke. It will be the same, at it’s core, but I’ve been reworking a few design elements, adding some functionality, content and features, and taking away the things that don’t fit anymore. Thanks so much for coming along on this journey, and sticking with me through the growth and change. And thanks for listening to my rambles… you guys are the best.

  1. Jamie says:

    I liked your blog post today – it’s been so neat as a friend to watch your business, decorating ideas, hairstyles, blogs and dreams about the future change. I still remember 4 1/2 years ago having a late night ‘pancake party’ at your place with our small group and remembering the beautiful ways we all have changed. Thanks for sharing part of your heart with your readers today!

  2. Stephanie says:

    I came across a link to your blog on another website and am so greatful I did! I too am from northern MN (and now live in southern WI) and love the little glimps of my past you allow me to take part in with your blog. :) Your house is gorgeous and your garden from last year inspired to make one of my own this spring!

  3. Ashley says:

    Seeing you mention of your ‘silent but faithful readers’ made me want to to leave a comment. I fall into that category because I’ve never commented before (I don’t think), but I’ve been reading your blog for months now. I enjoy it immensely and look forward to your new brand reveal!

  4. Annie says:

    Bethany, thanks for sharing your heart. I really appreciate your thoughts on life and change. It’s a privilege to watch that refining process in action! Looking forward to seeing the redesign!

  5. Thanks for the post! I look back that often and sometimes I totally cringe out of embarassment. Sometimes I get stuck in a desire to reach a certain level and just when I think I’m getting closer, expectations/whatever changes. I can’t tell if it’s a fruitless desire to get to some unknown destination or if it’s part of the journey. Looking forward to the new design!

  6. Hope says:

    It’s always such a treat to read your fresh perspective on life. I love the way you write. I can always relate. Looking forward to what you have in store!

  7. Layla says:

    I can’t wait to see the new changes!
    You’re the BEST!
    :-D

  8. Holly says:

    oohh, can’t wait to see the new design, I’m sure it’ll be fabulous!!

  9. Tricia says:

    Can’t wait to see the new blog! You are doing a great job my dear!

  10. He he. Your post made me laugh because serendipitously I am thinking the same thing. And interestingly it was being wowed by your blog design 4 weeks ago that got me thinking about the change in the first place.

    Are we ever happy as designers? Probably not – I guess that’s what makes us successful ;-)

    Good luck with the revamp and I look forward to seeing it soon. Fiona (via BYW)

  11. Change keeps us fresh! Looking forward to seeing your refreshed site…I know it will still b*Bethany : )

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